Ok, this is getting pretty old. The eczema on my hands is getting out of control. No matter what I use, it wakes me up itching and burning. It’s pretty much impossible for me to get a good night sleep. My hands hurt and burn so bad at the moment. I have the worse hands of anyone I know. Except for Charlotte, she has horrible ungodly eczema. Her hands are usually cracked and bleeding. I’m thankful that my hands aren’t that bad but they’re bad enough. I can’t handle this constant itching and burning. My thighs are always itching too. Basically, my whole body is always itching. It says a person should try not to bath themselves but how the hell does one do that? I could understand if you were married or had a significant other, but that I do not have. It’s driving me up the wall! I have Dyshidrosis, a less common type of eczema. I’ve mentioned it before. It’s irritating!
So, I’ve been doing some exercising. I need to cut back on how much I eat. I think I’m eating more than I used to because I’m bored. From now on, no more eating snacks and all. I’ve got to take off some of this weight and get into better shape. It’s so hard to get determined to do something like this. From now on, less intake, more output. I’m going to work when I wake up, while I’m bored instead of eating and any other time I feel like doing anything detrimental to my weight loss.
Well, I think I’m going to try this sleep thing again. Something’s gotta give soon. I think I may go ahead and go to emergency room to see if they give me something for my hands. The hardest part is wondering what they’re going to say about my scars and cuttings on my arms. It some cases, they may assume I’m a harm to myself. What they don’t know is that it’s not about hurting myself, I definately don’t cut to get by in my day to day life. I do get depressed, I’m human… Who doesn’t? Don’t think I cut because of it though, that’s a definate no. I see MTV is trying to start showing more videos. One thing I do like though, is the Movie Awards on MTV.
I guess enough people complained over the years! I can’t tell you when I actually watched MTV for videos. I usually watch it for the reality shows which seem to be the same over and over and over. I think TRL ruined the videos on MTV. I hated how they showed 2 minutes of a video, if that long. It never made any sense. I want to hear the entire song, but like I said, MTV isn’t really the channel I prefer. I would rather watch MTV2 or Fuse. Vh1 has been obsolete for some time now. I don’t know what happened there. Maybe it’s because there’s no more Insomniac Music Theatre. When they actually showed awesome videos.
Enough ranting on about something that has no room to be talked about. I guess that’s what this blog is all about! I get to ramble on about whatever the hell I want.
I’ve just discovered that my Word 2007 connects to WordPress which makes me happy! I would rather type in word without having that crappy online posting. I had small areas to type in. I want to see the entire page, not just 4in by 2in of nothing! I know one thing is for sure, I’m not watching anything ridiculous about Chupacabra’s anymore.
This pretty much sums up my currents status. I’m sure something will come about soon. I think some people are supposed to stop by and chill for a while tonight. I may call Crystal and David to see what they’re going to be doing this weekend. We can chill and smoke down for a bit. I was also thinking about going to the movies. I could find someone to go, I’m sure.
Filed under: Rambling | Tags: anti-war, homsexuality, hygeine, laundry, pictures, tv, war
The laundry is finally done! I’m glad it’s all over. I got everything washed except my comforter. I was thinking about stretching my labret on to 8mm (0g) but I’m not sure if the taper I have will make that an easy feat. I’m smoking a lot more than I used to. Actually, I’m smoking less than I used to but more than I have been. One thing is, it makes me brush my teeth more and more each day. I already take exceptional care of my teeth. I don’t guess it’s a bad thing. My hair is starting to grow back out and it’s looking a bit wild. I think it’s time to find a hat to wear until it grows a bit more. I like billed-knit-like hats. Something a “rasta” would wear! Plain black though, I can do without the yellow green and red. I will probably just go without.
Oh my GAWD, the TV was just showing footage of Saddam’s fall and the people of Iraq were thanking, “Mr. Bush” – I think they are probably eating their words now. I’m sure they want us to get the fuck out of their country. I really need to stop watching so much TV. I don’t even know why I’m watching footage of the war. I’m so tired of all of it. I’m tired of soldiers expecting so much respect for something they decided to do theirselves. I’m just tired of it. I don’t care if you’re over there, I don’t support you nor will I ever. If it is my destiny to die, then die I shall. I’m so tired of hearing, “We’re over hear fighting for our country, fighting for people like you…” BLAH, BLAH, BLAH! I didn’t ask you to. If you weren’t there, I would be just as content. If they were here killing and raising hell (don’t even bring up 9/11! Build yourself a bridge and get right over it.) it would be different. Ok, I’ve really got to stop talking about war because it’s just making me ramble on about issues that so many have already voiced. I stay out of it usually… Just let it be known, you’re not doing me any favors over there. I would have “relations” with most of them though, I won’t tell if you dont! ;)
Today should be a quiet day in the house. I think my Mother is accompanying my Sister to Dallas to take my nephew to have his braces installed. I also get the comfort of knowing that someone is with my sister. I could be the one going but I can’t be stuck in Dallas for hours, waiting for braces to be done. There’s only so much you can do for 5 hours. I don’t want to walk around the Galleria, I want to shop and that I can’t do. I’ll have a nice quiet house to sleep away the day in. I’m such as nightstalker (yes, stalker not walker!). Either way, my time awake is winding down. I’m not so much tired, but I need to start settling in for bed. I have so pictures to post here shortly.
Not the most flattering picture, BTW! I promise!
So, after an hour of watching TruTV (formerly CourtTV), I’m so tired of television. I was considering going out tomorrow nd buying another tarantula. I have an extra aquarium and all. It’s not so big, but it’s all it will need. I was also considering buying a divider for the current habitat and painting it black so they don’t stress out by seeing each other. I wonder if the paint would hurt them? I’ll find out…
Either way, not much is going on tonight. This town is the the worse place I’ve lived when it comes to weekend entertainment and general entertainment at that. It’s ridiculous. There’s like 3 “decent” bars that I still wouldn’t frequent, the people are absolute douchebags and it’s not where I want to be. I’m counting down the time until I leave for Florida. I know there’s no definate date yet, but I’m still counting. I’m absolutely ready… I wish I could leave tomorrow. Florida is my life and the people there I openly bring into my life. I have so much there, I left so many people. I left everything and now I want it all back. Sooner rather than later, hopefully…
