Maybe I smoke a bit too much pot. Sometimes, it’s the only thing that occupies me. One thing I’ve realized about being home all the time and away from people is how peaceful it is. I really do need this seclusion to get my life together. I was always so concerned with other things that were going on. Things that are not important whatsoever. It’s working too, things are coming together nicely.
I think something is definately wrong though. I’m warching Bridezilla’s on the WE channel. I don’t know what has come over me. I would smack half of the women on this show. When I noticed it was on, I had to watch it. I wasn’t paying attention to the TV and I had my headphones on and then it all went sour. Hah! I looked and got hooked! Ok, that was my lame attempt at being ultracool.
I ended up in bed earlier than ever last night. That still only ended up being 5am or so. It could have been a little earlier. I don’t know why my family calls me in the early morning. I live a different schedule than they do. I don’t call them at 4 in the morning so why do they call me at 10 in the morning? It’s annoying… It makes me so mad sometimes but I get over it shortly thereafter. I shouldn’t forget that God has saved me from the gays! Thank you, Jesus!!!
I think my grandparents are anticipating my arrival. I keep telling them new things about the progression of my education and they become so happy. I guess because no one else in the family bothered to aspire to go to college. Well, I shouldn’t say that. Things happen in life for a reason, I’m not going to say they didn’t want to go. My family isn’t perfect but when it comes down to it, I wouldn’t change them for anything. I’ve never wanted for anything. I never wanted much, but what I wanted I got. More than anything, I just wanted the attention of my family.
There’s a pair of 2″ eyelets on eBay that I want. They’re cheap and they seem like a decent pair as far as the picture shows. I think the people are trustworthy enough to not rip you off. They have absolute perfect feedback. I’ve personally never had issues with eBay but I know people who have. I guess it all depends on who you choose to buy from. You should atleast check the feedback of the seller. Either way, here are a couple of pictures. I’ve had them on my camera for a couple days.
If you’re good at reading minds or good at reading between the lines, you’ll get this. I’ll get what I had before back, no matter what it takes. I know it’s possible, I can sense it. Not only that but I feel it on the inside. I just know.
Now that I’ve confused the great majority of the world, school officially starts tomorrow. I have to select my courses and all. I’m working towards a Bachelors Degree. I don’t think 4 years is such a long time. This post was in my drafts, I figured I would post it! Either way, I have some pictures. They’re small because I didn’t want to link them. It’s too much work. I’m listening to the Moldy Peaches. They’re the ones who did that song from the movie Juno. I didn’t even see the movie… I used to hear the song when I was working…
So, I’m sure you’re probably thinking I’m crazy but I’m not. I’m bored, that’s all. I seem to always be bored. It’s by my own choice. In order to get my life on track I’ve got to disassociate myself from others. It’s probably somewhat unhealthy but I have an unhealthy way of blowing everything off when I’m always surrounded by others. What’s more important to me? Friends or Career? I’ll have to go with Career for $1000, Alex! As soon as I’m on track, I’ll start to be more sociable. I’m holding out until Florida! I have no desire to meet anyone or associate with anyone here in Texas. Well, except the 2 guys who I usually chill with on a not so regular basis. They don’t constantly hassle me to do for them. I would do something for them!
Filed under: Rambling | Tags: anti-war, homsexuality, hygeine, laundry, pictures, tv, war
The laundry is finally done! I’m glad it’s all over. I got everything washed except my comforter. I was thinking about stretching my labret on to 8mm (0g) but I’m not sure if the taper I have will make that an easy feat. I’m smoking a lot more than I used to. Actually, I’m smoking less than I used to but more than I have been. One thing is, it makes me brush my teeth more and more each day. I already take exceptional care of my teeth. I don’t guess it’s a bad thing. My hair is starting to grow back out and it’s looking a bit wild. I think it’s time to find a hat to wear until it grows a bit more. I like billed-knit-like hats. Something a “rasta” would wear! Plain black though, I can do without the yellow green and red. I will probably just go without.
Oh my GAWD, the TV was just showing footage of Saddam’s fall and the people of Iraq were thanking, “Mr. Bush” – I think they are probably eating their words now. I’m sure they want us to get the fuck out of their country. I really need to stop watching so much TV. I don’t even know why I’m watching footage of the war. I’m so tired of all of it. I’m tired of soldiers expecting so much respect for something they decided to do theirselves. I’m just tired of it. I don’t care if you’re over there, I don’t support you nor will I ever. If it is my destiny to die, then die I shall. I’m so tired of hearing, “We’re over hear fighting for our country, fighting for people like you…” BLAH, BLAH, BLAH! I didn’t ask you to. If you weren’t there, I would be just as content. If they were here killing and raising hell (don’t even bring up 9/11! Build yourself a bridge and get right over it.) it would be different. Ok, I’ve really got to stop talking about war because it’s just making me ramble on about issues that so many have already voiced. I stay out of it usually… Just let it be known, you’re not doing me any favors over there. I would have “relations” with most of them though, I won’t tell if you dont! ;)
Today should be a quiet day in the house. I think my Mother is accompanying my Sister to Dallas to take my nephew to have his braces installed. I also get the comfort of knowing that someone is with my sister. I could be the one going but I can’t be stuck in Dallas for hours, waiting for braces to be done. There’s only so much you can do for 5 hours. I don’t want to walk around the Galleria, I want to shop and that I can’t do. I’ll have a nice quiet house to sleep away the day in. I’m such as nightstalker (yes, stalker not walker!). Either way, my time awake is winding down. I’m not so much tired, but I need to start settling in for bed. I have so pictures to post here shortly.
Not the most flattering picture, BTW! I promise!
