Too Weird To Live, Too Rare To Die…

Ok, this is getting pretty old. The eczema on my hands is getting out of control. No matter what I use, it wakes me up itching and burning. It’s pretty much impossible for me to get a good night sleep. My hands hurt and burn so bad at the moment. I have the worse hands of anyone I know. Except for Charlotte, she has horrible ungodly eczema. Her hands are usually cracked and bleeding. I’m thankful that my hands aren’t that bad but they’re bad enough. I can’t handle this constant itching and burning. My thighs are always itching too. Basically, my whole body is always itching. It says a person should try not to bath themselves but how the hell does one do that? I could understand if you were married or had a significant other, but that I do not have. It’s driving me up the wall! I have Dyshidrosis, a less common type of eczema. I’ve mentioned it before. It’s irritating!

So, I’ve been doing some exercising. I need to cut back on how much I eat. I think I’m eating more than I used to because I’m bored. From now on, no more eating snacks and all. I’ve got to take off some of this weight and get into better shape. It’s so hard to get determined to do something like this. From now on, less intake, more output. I’m going to work when I wake up, while I’m bored instead of eating and any other time I feel like doing anything detrimental to my weight loss.

Well, I think I’m going to try this sleep thing again. Something’s gotta give soon. I think I may go ahead and go to emergency room to see if they give me something for my hands. The hardest part is wondering what they’re going to say about my scars and cuttings on my arms. It some cases, they may assume I’m a harm to myself. What they don’t know is that it’s not about hurting myself, I definately don’t cut to get by in my day to day life. I do get depressed, I’m human… Who doesn’t? Don’t think I cut because of it though, that’s a definate no. I see MTV is trying to start showing more videos. One thing I do like though, is the Movie Awards on MTV.

I guess enough people complained over the years! I can’t tell you when I actually watched MTV for videos. I usually watch it for the reality shows which seem to be the same over and over and over. I think TRL ruined the videos on MTV. I hated how they showed 2 minutes of a video, if that long. It never made any sense. I want to hear the entire song, but like I said, MTV isn’t really the channel I prefer. I would rather watch MTV2 or Fuse. Vh1 has been obsolete for some time now. I don’t know what happened there. Maybe it’s because there’s no more Insomniac Music Theatre. When they actually showed awesome videos.

 Enough ranting on about something that has no room to be talked about. I guess that’s what this blog is all about! I get to ramble on about whatever the hell I want.